every beat of my heart

Saturday, May 5, 2012 @1:29 AM

040512,

everything that is happening right now is seriously not up to what i thought it gonna be. but i guess it's like becoming more worst? anyway, to both of you, congrats. hope you guys last long. and to you, i know you're sucha friendly person but when you're in a bad mood, everything around you seems to be all wrong. no one is right. and also, you can be cold-hearted person sometimes. but just one thing for sure, treasure her well. she's not like me. hopefully you can treasure her very well and don't ever treat her like a plastic bag or tissue. she's not someone when you think you need someone to talk to, you find her. she's not that kind of girl. kayy. though i don't really know her, but seriously, i think she's not that type of person. you know, letting you go is kindda hurt but the worst hurt feeling is that the way you used to treat me. you treat me according to your feeling. when you feel somehow happy, you'll treat me well. but if you feel somehow angry or feeling down, you'll treat me the other way round. that's so clever of you. don't you think that everyone can ever accept you attitude okayy. it depends on which people you meet. soo yeaa. i'm here to just sharing for fun. not to put you down. always know that no matter how much you've hurt me, i will still treat you like a friend though we're no longer together. i'll can always replay those memories inside my mind. though it's somehow hurting me, but i know, it's not purposely been did. cause why? cause my love for you is blind(: hahaha. kayy. shall continue survivng my life with my ownself. back to solo. everything back to normal. just have to wait for the special one to open up my heart just like how you opened up my heart and accept me in whatever condition i am. but can i have a favour from you? can you wish a goodluck in my life and in whatever i do? i know you can right? soo, yeaa. i guess thats all i want from you after today.

Lots Of Love, Saffa xoxo

Monday, March 26, 2012 @6:25 PM

260312,

hello hello hello hello..

i'm kindda bored right now. so, i decided to post something at this blog. hmmmmph.

there's a few songs i feel like always wanna hear it. cause it sometimes suit my emotion i'm currently facing. so, here is the few list.

first of all, i want to dedicate a song for someone. though it's a kpop song, but seriously, that's what i'm currently facing. and here is the song.

second of all, a song that always play in my mind. i really wish for it to be real. but i know, it is all just a fairytale dream that cannot be real in life. and here's the song.

third of all, a song that is given from a friend of mine. all these time, i've been thinking a someone which i used to love for almost 2 years. though many of my friends and juniors asked me to forget him last year, i tried but it's hard. cause why? everytime when it comes to cca, i always see him. but i tried to avoid him and yes. i did it successfully. everytime i saw him from far, i'm prepared to get away from him, haha! how cool is that(: so, here's the song. enjoy~

hmmmmph. this are the only few songs i can think of for now. hehehe. will update soon when i have a free time. have fun listen!(: love ya.. xoxo

Thursday, March 15, 2012 @5:00 PM

Drew looks at me

I fake a smile so he won't see

What I want and I need

And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful

That girl he talks about

And she's got everything

That I have to live without

Drew talks to me

I laugh 'cause it's just so funny

I can't even see

Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love

He's finally got it right

I wonder if he knows

He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing

Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me

Can he tell that I can't breathe?

And there he goes, so perfectly

The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight

Give him all her love

Look in those beautiful eyes

And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing

Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone

As I turn out the light

I'll put his picture down

And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart

He's the song in the car I keep singing

Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough

And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me

I fake a smile so he won't see

@4:57 PM

Ku sedar ku tak seberapa

Jika dibanding mereka

Yang jauh lebih megah dari diri ini

Apa yang mampu ku berhias

Hanyalah hati yang ikhlas

Terpendam simpan untuk dia yang sudi

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya

Mencintai aku bukan kerana rupa

Dalam waktu sedu

Dalam waktu hiba

Ku harapkan dia rela

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya

Sanggup menerima insan tak sempurna

Atau mungkin cinta sebegitu hanya

Kisah dongeng saja

Belum pernah ku merasakan

Dipeluk dalam dakapan

Eratnya melindungi jiwa rapuh ini

Sanubariku memerlukan

Kehadiran seorang teman

Tulus mencurah kasih sepenuh hati

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya

Mencintai aku bukan kerana rupa

Dalam waktu sedu

Dalam waktu hiba

Ku harapkan dia rela

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya

Sanggup menerima insan tak sempurna

Atau mungkin cinta sebegitu hanya

Kisah dongeng saja

@4:55 PM

150312,

hmmmph. we've been meeting each other for the past 2 days (exclude today). you know what? sometimes, you think, by the meet-up can really make me as your friend. hmmmph.you're using me again, aren't you? cause i somehow get the feelings that you're using me as someone who you can rely on. hmmmmph. if you say that you aren't using me, you will have replied my text and say the truth. but now, i always realise that we kept meeting each other every tuesday. though i don't feel like meeting you, i still make myself free just to acccompany you. so, i really hope that you won't using me again just for fun. i'm not a tissue, a plastic bag, a paper and lastly, i'm not a thing for you to use and throw it away when you don't need me anymore. i'm just a normal human being just like you. i do have a heart too. don't think i don't have a heart. i admit that i'm not like her. i am me and she is she. we're different. don't ever compared us together. we're totally different. like you said, you hate kpop. but now, you admit that you like kpop. hehh. blocked me at twitter for spamming kpop thingy. what about you? you say people but then? end up, you said it to yourself too. always know how to see yourself in mirror before judging other people. i'm here just to say that. not that i want to make you lose face or what but seriously, i just want you to know it for your own better world. hmmmph. 180312 soon. but i'm sorry. i don't think of that date as a special date anymore like how i used to feel during the pass 2 years back. sorry to say this but, that's the fact. if i can accept the fact that i can make 180312 date from a special date to just a normal date, i bet so can you. ouhh wait! not so can you. i forgot that you're not that care type. you're cold-hearted, snobbish

(towards me), heck-care-type of a person and more. i really regret for what had happened on 180310. you're sooo sweet at words. i know that. anw, 1 last thing to end this update, i don't like you, i'm gonna treat you like how you treat me. last tuesday which on 130312 will be our last day meeting each other. i'll try my best to escape from you. if i can do it during secondary school, why can't i do it during now?(: get a new life, boy...

Monday, March 12, 2012 @2:07 PM

don't ever waste your time for someone who isn't worth it to receive forgiveness from us. if you think you are in a wrong position, forgive yourself and change to be a better one.

@1:28 PM

orang kalau jadi orang, hidup janganlah nak bermusuh selalu-.-' i'm dead tired okayy. i help you guys solve the problem and now, you guys like treating me as a enemy? what the fuck? hello. do ou guys every treat me like a friend? if i know this things gonna happen, i won't be helping to solve the problem for you guys-.-' end up, you guys treating me like shit-.-' wahhhhhhhh fcuk!! seriously!!